I’ve had with this weather. Can’t wait to get my ass to Egypt in the end of April. Gets me down, too. I hate it. It’s like the past is just summer and the sun, and all I see now is just rain, cold and gray skies. Pukealicious! And I find myself watching the planes disappearing into the clouds (gotta love destiny assigning me to the damned city of Kranj, just outside and nearest to the Brnik airport)… And then I dream some sort of Hitchcock, Lynch, Shyamalan mixture between Nightmare on Elm Street, Sixth Sense and (check this) Fried Green Tomatoes and Cinema Paradiso. I’m certifiable, I tell you. But it’s no secret and it doesn’t get me down anymore. I’ve always searched ways to go back in time. It’s possible in a way. And yes, I gotta do it, coz I feel better there. Used to do it by writing, now I don’t have time. Not even to finish my last novel. But the funny thing is, no matter what basket case I am, what all is missing, all the shit I cause and people I dissapoint, I know it all has a purpose. 😀 Yap, never saw it before, but now I finally realized a certain common denominator in everything I did, relating to people around me. I’m doing fine. Could say I found my purpose, haha.
Anyway, every once in a blue moon I need to push myself over the edge in what I do professionally, because years are not passing by, they’re shooting by. The other day I watched Katrina documentary and realized that shit went down in 2005. It’s 2008?!? Hell, where did three years go? Detached from my own life (living it, I mean; seeing, feeling, observing, learning…)… Right now I can’t even believe myself how far I could be pushing myself by the end of the year, but someohow I hope I will. And since I’m incompatible with life and all my decisions are usually wrong (scientifically proven on a sample), I’d probably be happy if I get back in one piece or ever get back at all. But now I know whatever happens will serve a good purpose.
This, my dears, is the post-shopping depression. 😀 Well, not really, I actually believe my life needs a reboot, but the truth is I did way too much shopping today. Yes, no biggie, I do it every time I feel I’m going down shit creek without a paddle. Of course I shit cash, don’t everybody? 😉 Ok, seriously. I had some small investments that cost a lot of money, but I’m (almost) done now. New flash (I finally get to kick the bastard 550EX out the door – although it works pretty well as my new 580EX slave, muahahahaha). Wireless triger and some other stuff hardly worth mentioning.
Dax Photo will soon get to see feature section update. A big one. But it takes a lot of writing and that’s why it hasn’t happened yet. Hot stuff (well, it’s almost old stuff already but hey, I’m slow, can’t help it): some of the best features so far in NG Traveler (Slovenian of course, for my constant foreign reader). The thing I did on that mountain/hill/whatever you call it, about the flower actually.
And now I gotta sleep. Another assignment tomorow. NG Traveler again. And it’s not close. Again. 😀 But it’s gonna be fun and interesting as always. Not an effortless job, but always a challange.
Shutting off my 80s, 90s playlist loop… and off to the … strange mansion I keep dreaming about for at least a week. 😀